I've spent most of this week with my phone and computer turned off, occasionally logging into FB, but nothing much else.
I've been blindsided by one too many pregnancy announcements this week. Two moms at the day care with children J's age, the neighbor around the corner with a daughter J's age, a few FB announcements. I felt like I couldn't even watch HGTV yesterday without some young homebuyer saying, "Oopsy- it just happened! Glad I bought that house with an extra bedroom!"
The new company that is taking us over is less family-friendly, my new manager is male, and I'm very worried about getting the flexibility to do treatments. It's pissing me off that, in trying to build our family, our privacy is violated by bringing a third party into the mix, and it's not something I can keep secret from my employer either, as the frequent appointments require permission.
I know. Woe is I. I'm lucky to have a child at all.
Hopefully next week I'll be able to pull myself out of my cave and return to your regularly scheduled blogging.
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Sounds like a lot to deal with.
I admit. I snickered at what you said about HGTV. And winced.
I hope things work out well with your new employer and with the treatments. MrsS.
Don't down play your pain because you already have a child. Until you find that your family is complete your struggle and pain are all "worthy."
I hope your new employer is friendly than it appears.
Sorry about all the announcements and the new employer. That sounds like a mound of stress.
Don't feel bad about venting and complaining about things- just because you have one child, doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt. I know that even if I ever become a mother of one child, it will still feel incomplete for me, and I will have to keep dealing with infertility and trying to build my family. We all know you are grateful for baby J, but we also know that you want more in your life (*hugs*) no one faults you that.
I have been where you are. And I know the guilt thing well.
I hope that things get better.
You will be in my thoughts. I hope things are looking up for you soon.
I've been having one of those weeks too. It is hard to see others get pg easily, no matter how grateful we are for what we have.
Sending hugs.
{{{Hugs}}} hon. That's a lot to deal with at once.
Sorry. That all sucks. I hope things go ok with work. I would say that technically you don't have to tell them what the doctors appts are for, just that you have a doctors appointment.
Yeah, I really resent the invasion of privacy by everyone including one's boss at work. Hopefully your fears are unfounded there. Good luck...
Bea
(((((hugs)))))
You know, we don't even plan on trying for No. 2 for another year, and I still feel blindsided by all the pregnancy announcements from people with kids Tyler's age.
Hugs to you. I can empathize a great deal with the range what you're feeling. While we lucked out on the employer end of it, I could have done without the blind-siding announcements (why do people insist on tell you in person?!). I'm thinking about you.
Some days (weeks) are just damn hard. We all need a retreat sometimes--and Im sure we all have those weeks we get socked with the pregnancy announcements.
If it makes you feel any better, 2 weeks ago I got 7 emails and saw 5 announcements on FB--all within two days. That was loads of fun. And BARF to HGTV asshats. :)
(HUGS)
I'm sorry you were blindsided my so many announcements. I didn't realize just how badly it sucks until I was informed this morning that my sister (who lives in the same town as me but we never see eachother and have an on/off friendship) is 31 weeks pregnant. She's 21 and not married. And I'm not on bcps and I couldn't get pregnant in the last 10 months to save myself. I don't get it. And somehow, be it infertility or otherwise, I feel like I just got slammed with a ton of bricks.
I hope your new employer is more understanding than you anticipate. Hang in there.
I know same boat here! HGTV is the worst for that!!!
Like Kim was saying in her post, and I kinda said in mine, I don't know that the wincing ever goes away - that knowing what it can take to get here, and knowing others had it easier doesn't piss you off just a little. Yea, maybe that makes us horrible people, but I think we're human, and things bug us, and if we need to shelter ourselves a little from it, so be it. Stay away as long as you need. You've got lots on your plate.
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